Okay, so how do I get taylorswift to notice me on tumblr, because almost exactly 4 years ago, I was there when she did a performance of “Back to December” in Central Park for her Thanksgiving special and I was literally 5 feet away from her, so during the downtime, we’d all make conversation with her, so I asked her if I could take her out for coffee once the taping was done, and she told me that unfortunately, they were taking her somewhere else right afterwards so she couldn’t, so I asked for a raincheck, and she agreed to it.
I’m still waiting on my raincheck, Taylor! I will be in NYC next week, so I will keep reblogging this until you see and let me take you out for coffee like you technically said I could 4 years ago!!!
I need to stop reactivating my OkCupid profile every time I’m trying to get over someone. I feel like it’s a bad idea. Actually, I know it’s a bad idea, because it didn’t turn out well last time. I am over the girl I was trying to get over, but that’s because I fell for the girl that I’m now trying to get over and neither were OkCupid affiliated.
This is a mess. Dating is a mess. I don’t even want to date. I just want to have solely platonic feelings for this girl and then continue on with my single life until I die.
I think I tried to distance myself so much from the ideologies of the people who hurt me that somewhere along the process I began to lose a bit (a lot?) of my own faith without even trying.
And now I want so desperately to believe. And I know deep deep down that it is true - I know it, it’s a conviction that won’t leave. But the passion, the ease isn’t there anymore, and I just want it back. I feel a little loss without it, and all I really want is my Best Friend completely and entirely back. Not this half-assness we’ve currently been in for however long.
It’s funny. Churches like Reality LA, trying so hard to bring people to God, not realizing how many they’ve actually turned away from God. Does bringing hundreds to a faith justify making even just one person lose theirs?
I’m gonna make this right. I’m not gonna let that fucking church ruin the best thing in my life…what pretty much is my life. I refuse to let them have any say in any way over me, my life, and my relationship with the Divine. I just won’t.